My experience here may not be typical, as I have a highly introspective nature and a familiarity with melancholia, as well as an exalted sun/moon in my natal chart. But I found this oil to be nurturing/comforting, and it was a good facilitator for working with the pure solar energy in the main series (Regulus worked well for this too).

This oil doesn’t feel hard to wear at all, and I really enjoy the introspective nature. Even the act of putting this on brings up guilt about applying it at all, because I’ll need to take time away from my partner and my responsibilities to tend to myself - which is exactly what I need to address. Guilt in tending to myself. Magic.

I think my experience with this subseries may vary from others, because I had been on a self-improvement journey for years before engaging with this oil. I use this oil as recommended, and engage in meditation while wearing it. It feels like a literal spotlight wanders from one body part or energy center to the next begging for examination and introspection. My first session was somewhat confusing yet healing, confirming and full of gratitude. I found it extremely helpful to listen to a sun mantra during the meditation session.

First, it feels very “moist” for Sol materia. Definitely no sunburn. Second, and most importantly, it takes me places I knew existed but had not either looked in a long time, or never looked. First thought: nobody has ever asked me how I felt in this particular place and if I’m ok. We spend SO much energy avoiding uncomfortable feelings. (When in fact they go away faster if we just feel through them.) This oil does just that - it’s like I have a witness and a guide who is wiser than all the therapists in the world. I can calmly sit and feel my way through with the aid of this “narrator within”. But this materia doesn’t only hold me, it gets to the root of the issues. I can just sit there and feel, witness, mourn and as they say; truly get in touch with myself. Incredibly powerful, introspective, gentle but intense. I’ve only begun the journey but I am impressed indeed, and looking forward to exploring more.

I'm a Leo Moon and finding that THIS subset oil perfect for me to use during early morning and late evening somatic exercises and meditation. The main oil comes off a little heated for me which is weird as I'm an Aries Sun, but the Torch of First Light is more muted and less intense (in the oil form). Looking forward to continued use with this one.

I’ve engaged with Torch of the First Light in a strictly therapeutic setting and have been amazed at what this has brought forward for me. Because of the depth and intensity I experience with this, I’ve found it helpful to use before therapy or bodywork when there is another person available to me to help guide what becomes illuminated. During a bodywork session, I was visualizing what it would be like to turn the lights on in various “rooms” in my body, and when I reached places where the light wouldn’t go or couldn’t stay on, it really illuminated the things in the dark in a deep and almost confronting way. There are ways in which ToFL can feel like feeling your way through the dark, and it can bring up fear or uncertainty when you can’t quite make sense of what you’re bumping up against. Given the potency of the medicine, I am grateful to the people I trust to help me hold and witness what I am bringing to light. I have done some really beautiful internal work with this materia, especially examining my purpose which has been the cause of so much grief for me. Using it is like weightlifting for your heart. There is certainly the presence of heavy things, but there is strength gained in the process of grasping them and holding them up to the light. ToFL has been a beautiful guide for this process of strengthening.